Forgiveness keeps me sane. Acceptance of life on life’s terms is acceptance of who I am, where I am and where I’ve come from. Forgiveness is acceptance of me for who and what I am. This shit hasn’t been easy but I’m sane and healthy today because I’ve made it work. I had a lot of feelings anger from my past to overcome. I grew up hated and hating others. I was angry because I was black growing up in a white world and I had to make it the best fucking way I could. Sure, I went along to get along but in the pit of my stomach I hated white people and the fact that I had to hide and suppress my true feelings to survive in that world. These are not the feelings that produce forgiveness nor acceptance. These are not the feelings that taught me to forgive or accept myself. Today, I have. I have forgiven myself for what I have endured and how I had been scared because of it. I accept life on life terms as acknowledging I can’t change the past but also understanding there’s a great purpose behind all this shit.
