I’m here at Yale and have great expectations. I’m looking forward to the future in ministry that is before. I expect I will enjoy a good life and help people when I’m finally ordained. These are some of my expectations. But I’m confused by things I’m doing to make it. I’m confused by the incredibly shallow relationship I’m involved in here. I’m making friends but don’t feel these relationships are genuine. How can they be? I’m carrying baggage and secrets. I can’t believe I’m here academically. How did I get here? There are these secrets I’m carrying about the things I’m doing and have done to make it here. This shit weights me down. I’m not sure I’m gonna make it thru this program. I’m hoping I will. I know I’ve got a lot of work to do. I’m guess you could say I’m also Expecting a Miracle.